Being still

 Being still is what I aspire for in 2023!  You see I am the type who wants to do a million things to keep myself fit , healthy and have to admit sometimes purely  aesthetic reasons too !  Constantly aspiring to be better than what I was yesterday ! 


The mother in me wants to be a perfect mother , from being their coach/ guide, confidant/friend,  planning picture perfect birthdays ,  fun filled holidays dotted with traditions they can reminisce later to  cooking nutritious and macro balanced meals  and oh not to forget being a great role model while doing all of that !


The wife in me wants to be a great companion the one who is compatible  intellectually, share common interests and understand what he’s thinking without exchanging a word .  And yeah growing old together in a good looking sort of way like they show on  movies  !


The list of roles I want to perfect is endless. 


My mind runs hundred miles  an hour since the time I wake up trying to figure out how to maximize my time and how to get the most out of that day.


So this year , in 2023 I want to aspire to be still. Not in literal sense, but the way they say to imagine to balance a glass of water on the small of your back when you do bird dog in yoga !! I want to continue to hustle , continue to save the day but balancing the glass of water deep inside my mind without throwing small pebbles into them to create ripples . 


I want to give myself permission to drop the ball sometimes ,  allow for flaws , allow for less than perfect outcomes by allowing myself to be still . To start the journey towards developing a bit of zen , bit of stoic or bit of just calmness inside of me which hopefully can grow as the years go by. Think of it like a little garden that I can start growing , maybe just a seed that holds a promise to a pretty little patch of plants , nothing fancy , nothing like a

manicured patch of color coordinated flowers with hedges , just a tiny oasis that I can turn to when I need a gentle hug and a place to breathe easy.  Oh the moment I shared this vision I got chuckles , literal lols and also few eye rolls !! So let’s begin the journey and see how it goes ..

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